When I was a child, I remember days when you weren’t there to pick me up from school. You told me you would be there, but you were running late. I watched as other children were picked up by their parents, and they looked back at me as if I had been abandoned. I never once felt like that. Like, you left me behind. I always understood you were working hard for us.
You gave up so much to keep us under a roof, to keep us happy and healthy, to keep us safe, to keep food on the table. You have always given me so much. More than I ever deserved. You do so much for our tiny family. For you and I, for Nate, for Jon… How welcoming you are to every single one of my friends, how you always have some wisdom to share; your talent and your kindness are unfathomably pervasive. You really care about our life. No one can deny how hard you’ve worked for it.
Looking back, some of those rainy days I spent leaning on the brick wall under an overhang outside my elementary school, I remember the looks on those mother’s faces. They didn’t understand how any woman could leave their child waiting for even a minute. I remember the judgemental things people said about single parents, about working mothers, about children who had to be put into daycare of all things. How horrible! they must have thought.
I remember. Those words hurt me the most. I would stop at nothing to make them see the error of their ways. You were busy and anyone who works as hard as you should have a child who understands that. I never once questioned your love just because you were busy. Even on the days we didn’t get along, on the days I disappointed you; even on those days when I waited for you to pick me up. You gave up so much so we could be free to dream… and I dreamed. You instilled a work ethic in me that has kept me pursuing the same dream I had then — to follow that dream you always encouraged.
You always say… how proud I make you… but I just wish I could find a way to tell you how proud I am to be your daughter.
I love you so much, mom. Thank you for always working so hard to make our dreams come true.
Happy Mother’s Day ♥